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The way I see it, the time is NOW... for change to come & happiness, health & strength to be found. As of 2012, this has only changed in the way that I have stumbled upon an amazing at home business venture that has given me the avenue to ACTUALLY help transform peoples lives. Funny thing is, that's been my goal all along. So now I not only share who I am here but what I do. The fact is that anyone of you can actually find your happiness & success thru allowing the right connections to occur in your life. If you are on my blog... you made it here because you are looking to shift, strive, smile &/or change. Well now, I can help guide you to do any & all of the above thru personal motivation, life changing products with an outstanding reputation & LONG list of testimonials, substantial savings with our shopping annuity & incredible business opportunities to actually call your own... While never having to leave the security of your current J O B! Never be afraid to give something you know nothing about a chance; at least to hear about it. Then you can make an educated decision to pass it up not an ignorant one. The opportunities exist.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Largely why I am me...

Still no run. But Friday is the day we begin again. The hamstring is still a little tender but I can finally establish a complete stretch. Back to the 'ol (now modified) challenge.

As for the center piece of this post. Well, today was my mother's 5th anniversary since she's passed on. It was a perfectly gloomy day to match the gloom in my heart. 
My husband, children and siblings (some of them) reached out and/or accepted my attempt to connect. It was still in part, I believe in trying to heal. Will it ever be healed? I mean, the loss of your parent. Do you ever really get over it?
I feel her presence in my life daily. I know that she is in my heart and that we remember her constantly and share memories of the moments that she shared with us and yet, today I was filled with so much sorrow.
I'm no child anymore. I know the truths about what it takes to be married, to want out, to stay together, to be unappreciated as a wife or mother at times, as a sister, aunt, woman or friend. Life isn't always fun or easy but thanks to her strengths and yes, my witnessing her weaknesses (whether in the moment or in retrospect); I have learned to be the woman that I am today. 
She not only helped mold me through her love, but through her actions (wrong or right) and through her happiness and sorrows. I guess, through her life and death I have learned to live. 

So today I give thanks for having had the mother that I had... She will never be forgotten because she made the time to have us all,  love us the best way she knew how and shared so much of herself anytime that she could. 

Never underestimate the power of what it means to be a woman...

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